Not your average
There are a lot of things not average about me. I wish I could insert a cry laughing emoji here. Really, I would if I could. To start, I'm borderline superfat and queer. There are not a lot of people in really large bodies talking about being in recovery from an eating disorder. It's just not that common. As I'm sure you probably already know if you are in a larger body and have struggled with an eating disorder, disordered eating, or been on a gazillion diets. If you're queer, you probably also don't see that many queer people talking about recovery from food and body issues either. Yet, people in the LGBTQQI+ community experience food and body distress more than our straight counterparts. And if you are trans, then the numbers skyrocket. The resources and safe spaces available to fat and queer people are pretty few and far between. And even fewer for POC, trans, disabled, and chronically ill folx. I desire is to be a safer space for people with non-dominant systemic identities that I don't experience.
As a recovery coach, I support people on their eating disorder, disordered eating, and body image recovery journey. This includes anyone who wants to ditch all the dieting. I support you in healing your relationship with food and body in the ways that you want, at the pace that you want. I will hold space for hope in your healing even if you can't imagine it yet.
Recovery can be the windiest of roads through the densest of forests. It's nice to have someone to travel the road with you that has done it before. I am in recovery from binge eating disorder, orthorexia, bulimia, anorexia, and exercise bulimia. I know I'm not the only one whose eating disorder didn't fit in a box. It's possible to experience more than one at a time or morph from one eating disorder to another. At times, I have identified as being recovered. I recognize that this is very much a privilege, as there are a lot of systemic forces that keep too many people from being able to fully recover. I can't promise what your recovery will look. I can't promise that you will fully recover. I can't promise that you will never struggle with eating disorder thoughts again. I'm not sure that I can really promise you anything. That's not true. I promise to listen to you. To listen to your story. To be there with you and hold space for whatever it is that you need through pursuing what you want. I promise you empathy and compassion.
I promise I will share with you the tools that have helped me to recover. It will most likely be messy. It usually is. There is so much on the other side of all the disordered thoughts and behaviors. So much life and connection waiting for you. We can work together to discover what it is you want beyond preoccupation with food and weight. I know it is scary. I know it might be one of the hardest things you will ever do. You don't have to do it alone. I will be there with you along the way.
A couple more things about me that make not your average recovery coach! I am a certified Body Trust® Advocate through Be Nourished in NE Portland, OR, US. Body Trust is both a radical paradigm shift for helping professionals and a specialized, practical intervention for healing body shame and disordered eating that addresses internalized weight stigma and moves towards resilience and liberation from individual, cultural and systemic body oppression. This training changed my life, and I am committed to passing on what I have learned to others!!
The other training that I am completing is called Peer Wellness Specialist training. I know, right?! What is that? Well, it is a really amazing training that falls under the peer support model. Again. . .what is that? This is what I thought when I first heard about it. I had to go do some google searches and figure out what it was. Honestly, there isn't much out there that actually describes peer support philosophy. You can read here if you want to dig into some writing on it. Basically the peer support model rejects the pathologizing that happens within the medical model for substance use disorders and mental health challenges. It places priority on the connection between two people, because of their shared experience. Peer Wellness Specialists (PWS) go through an intensive state-approved training program that teaches them to use their lived experience to provide advocacy and support for other individuals with similar challenges. The peer support model is meant to empower individuals to pursue what their recovery and/or wellness goals are, rather than have them be determined by someone else and be stripped of their power.
Are you ready for support?
You are so worth it. Even if you don't believe that, I'll hold space and believe it for you.
Would you like to chat for a twenty minutes to see if we are a good fit? Are you ready to schedule your first appointment? Either way, I'd be happy to schedule with you! Fill out the form below, and I will send you the link to my calendar to schedule.
I am currently available by phone or video calls. I use web based video conference platform called Zoom. It can be accessed by telephone, smart phone, or web. If you'd like to meet in person, I am located in Portland, Oregon, US.
"Don't be fooled into thinking you are doomed when you are merely doing the work of awakening."
- Chani Nicholas